Well it has been over a month since I made my last blog post. And things have changed. 
Covid cases in India have been insane, and because of that, Nepal has closed its borders. It would not have be possible nor smart for our team to attempt to go to Nepal. So the trip was cancelled.
My heart sank at the reality of those words. The anger began to bubble and my immediate reaction was that of dropping to the floor and beginning to sob. I wanted to delete the email, and live in a false reality that we were still going to be able to go. But I knew that was not possible.
So I thanked God for the opportunities that He had previously provided and though still wishing things would go my way, I prayed his will to be done. A little over a week later, we were given a Plan B option. 

We would be heading to Guatemala. The opportunity was unlike any other, as we would be ‘pioneering’ to a new mission location that AIM has never been to before. So I decided to go. In all honesty... that’s not where I wanted to go. I wanted to be in the Philippines or in Nepal. I thought it was important for me to be going to a far away location that doesn’t have a Christian/Catholic background. 
I needed a MAJOR heart check! Why was I so worried about the location I was going to over the fact that no matter where I go, I get to tell people about Jesus. That’s all the matters. That’s why I wanted to go on a mission trip to begin with. This trip isn’t about me, or about how long the travel day is or the religion of the people I interact with. It’s simply about Jesus. 
Now I can fully say, I am so excited to be going to Guatemala. The Lord is already changing my heart and opening my eyes to how incredible he is WAY before I head to training camp and Guatemala. God is going to do big things, no matter where in the world I am. So I’m loosening my grip, and letting him have full control. Because His will is ALWAYS better than what I want. I just have to be willing to admit that.