There’s not really a way to tie this blog up with a bow nor will there ever be enough words in the English language to describe to you all the exquisiteness of our Lord. In my last blog, I explained that I’m unlearning tradition. How sometimes the Lord calls us to newness and uncertainty, and wants us to go against the flow. He has been telling me this for a long time. I haven’t listened. Until now. So let me tell you 🙂
I remember being in 11th grade, sitting on the couch in tears talking to my parents because I didn’t want to go to college. But I didn’t know anything else to do. So come summer of my senior year, I begin researching colleges and majors and tried to find something that could fit exactly for what I thought I was called to. So I decided on international business and enrolled at the University of Tennessee. I didn’t think much of it and was truly excited for the “college experience” and everything that was a part of that. Come graduation, I begin having this uncertain pit in my stomach that UTK wasn’t suppose to be where I was going, but I just ignored it. Multiple weeks later I learned that my financials were changed and college was going to cost ten fold what we originally had planned for. So I begin praying harder and harder that the Lord would provide money or a way for me to be able to afford UTK. Because that is where I wanted to be and assumed that’s where he wanted me as well. But as we know, our plans often are different than his own, so he instead deepened that pit that was in my stomach.
On the second night of training camp, I find myself weeping in the arms of my leader Maggie because I had finally realized I wasn’t suppose to be going away to college. I needed to stay home, there was unfinished business and community that I needed to go back to. But I hadn’t been ready to accept that. So after lots of prayer, talking to many people and even more prayer I made the decision to unenroll from University of Tennessee Knoxville.
And yes, this is a huge decision and I’m absolutely terrified. Like so!! so!! scared! But I know the Lord is faithful to fulfill what He has promised to me! And there is going to be such goodness and growth in this coming season! I am held in the arms of my Heavenly Father, he will graciously guide me when it’s hard to see. He will never lead me astray, and man the path is so good when he is the one leading.
This fall, I will be taking some classes at ECC and nannying and I accepted the spot as the assistant coach for our middle school volleyball team! Then come 2022, I feel called to a three month mission trip but the Lord has full hold of those plans right now so nothing is set in stone!
If you have any questions or would like to know more, feel free to text me at (517) 449-2410!! We are currently at debrief in Atlanta and I will be flying home tomorrow! There will probably be one more blog after this one (this has taken about 1.5 weeks to write haha so!) Thank you for all your support
Team Cultivate in front of the Library that we painted and renovated this month 🙂
